Waiting for baby....

Still waiting for my first granddaughter. Quite honestly I'm terrified right now. Maybe it will help if I write it out.

My niece died in 2005, her name is Caroline, her father is my youngest brother, I wrote about it on my blog last year at this time. Anyssa, my granddaughter was due on Caroline's original due date, October 12th. I can't help it, I don't know where I got it from but I am overly superstitious. Again, I can't help it, I've tried. The doctor wanted to give my Daughter-in-law (Andrea) a c-section on Caroline's birthday October 19th. Andrea and Chris kindly declined. Long story short we are still waiting and today is the day that Caroline died, 4 years ago. Like I said, I'm terrified and just surviving on faith right now.

Before Caroline I never had these feelings. I was 14 days overdue with Julia, she had meconium, but was fine. Healthy and SMART. So what am I worried about...